I feel much better these days. I am so glad to know that how I feel depends solely on my thoughts. I’m learning to train my thoughts to get me out of any slump. It really works.
I know the universe has some exciting things in store for me. I look forward to my future.
Until next time, take care.

This week I had my regular phone consultation with my homeopathic doctor, Dr. David. I usually look forward to these appts because it seemed as though he and my naturopathic doctor are the only doctors who believe in what I am trying to do. I was totally caught off guard when he said that maybe it wasn’t possible for my kidneys to heal. If it was liver it might be possible but not the kidney.

At one time my mainstream specialists told me that also and I was very upset. When I told Dr. David about that comment he asked if I was going to let them decide my destiny. I am so confused as to his comments now. I also feel very bad because I needed that support. Anyway, I told him that it would be good to have my example of healed kidneys to use for other patients. I don’t see it as my job for me to reassure him but I guess I needed to hear that as much as he did.

It is crazy how I just can’t doubt this process. It’s as though I have some kind of knowing that I will some day be living a life free of dis-ease. So I move forward the best I can. I told Dr .David that I felt it was time to try something new. Something to give my body a bit of a jump start because things were stagnating and there had been no change for awhile. He is sending me another remedy to go along with the one I’m taking now. It might help.

Tonight I watched the Larry King show on NBC channel. His guest was Tony Robbins, a motivational life coach who helps people get there lives back in order. I’m going to look for his books in the hopes of discovering another avenue I haven’t tapped into yet.

I’m making an appt with a naturopathic kidney specialist in Vancouver. I have to finish filling out a form about my health history and then he and I will talk. I’m looking forward to that. The universe provides the people needed as I’m ready. I’m very grateful.

Until next time, take care.

Sorry it's been so long!

Happy Canada Day everyone!

I haven’t written in awhile because I thought I had nothing to write about. Is that what they call, “writer’s block”? I think it is more a case of fear. I have a very hard time sharing my feelings and thoughts. If I can’t find something else to talk about then I would rather just listen. There is always somebody who is more than happy to talk about themselves! Anyway, recently something happened and I have decided to share the experience with you. As uncomfortable as I am, I’m thinking it will be good for my health to learn how to do this. It will be like exorcizing the negativity in my life.

I have a vision board on the wall in my bedroom and as writing a book is part of my vision, I have a copy of my book sitting right by my computer. I have put a mockup of a book jacket on a book so that it looks like I wrote the book. This cover has my picture on it, a title and it says by “Best Selling Author” Mary Dancey.

One of my friends stopped by and when she saw that book she picked it up and burst out laughing. She laughed very hard and loud and said, “Yaw, right Mare!” She was ridiculing my vision! My response was to tell her she will be laughing out of the other side of her face when I’m living high from the money I make from my best seller!

I was very disappointed in her reaction. Since I’ve been sick, I have found that some of the people I was calling a friend don’t have my best interest in mind. It seems they want to be my friend as long as I don’t grow past them. They try to pull me back down when they can. I see that some of my people want to learn and grow with me but I have also learned that I won’t be able to take all my old people with me on my journey of healing.

That makes me sad at times but I now can look at it in a different way. Their reaction to me isn’t personal, it isn’t even about me. It is about them and their own fears to deal with or to live with. I see that I’m attracting new people to me, people who are very positive and far more supportive than a lot of people who I’ve known a long time. I have decided that my experience as Mary, will be exciting and prosperous from now on. I’m anxious to meet the new positive people that I’ll attract along the way. I am ready to let go of the others with the hopes that they some day realize that our experience on this earth is a choice we make. I will stop resisting this shift and embrace the changes I’m about to make.

Until next time, take care.

I had a bad night last night because I spent most of the night with my head in the toilet throwing up. I am so exhausted today. I’ll spend the day on the couch watching the cooking channel. Even though the chefs make all their food look so good, today, I’ll limit my dining to cream of chicken soup and toast while I gather ideas for my renal cook book. Can’t waste a day on the couch!
During these episodes I’m reminded of how sick I am and that I have a long way to go yet. I try not to get discouraged even though it’s difficult not to. Tomorrow will be a better day.
Be grateful for your health.
Until next time, take care. MD

I had the privilege of going snowmobiling with my husband on the weekend. We hauled our sleds to the Hudson Bay area. Riding the trails in the parkland forest is one of my favorite things to do. Surrounding my self with nature is good for healing. I like to stop the sled and sit with my eyes closed listening to the sounds of the forest and allow a greater power to flow through me to help mend my body. I highly recommend getting closer to nature as part of a healing process. It is medicine that really works. Why not make it part of your living process? It is good for the soul. I’m learning that when we learn to feed our soul instead of our ego every thing else will fall into place.
Until next time, take care.

The 2010 winter Olympics ended on the weekend. It was an amazing display of hard work and determination. The athletes, organizers, media, staff, and volunteers did such a great job of entertaining us for the past two weeks. Some athletes had a dream of just getting to the Olympics and others dreamt of winning gold while there. The organizers were looking to wow us with an opening ceremony like no other. We watched the different networks share the responsibility of getting the information to us. The front people were supported by a variety of background workers and volunteers who remained nameless but were diligent with their duties. Each of these people involved have a personal vision for themselves and make the choices necessary to bring that vision to a reality.
Watching the Olympics from my living room I took so much from this event to use as an inspiration. For instance one of the announcers was from my local area and there she was sports commentating at the Olympics for one of the big networks! A small town Saskatchewan girl making it big in what was once considered a man’s domain. I’m sure she had to overcome many hurdles to realize her vision but obviously didn’t let those things stop her.
Although I was encouraged by so much during the Olympics, the athletes were my biggest inspiration. As I heal my body, make it do something that mainstream doctors say it can’t, I watched the games of strength and noticed how these people went beyond the norm. They pushed their bodies to the limit making it do things that some might say was impossible. They overcame all kinds of injuries and health issues to get to that podium. They overcame adversity and rose above. To me they opened their minds to infinite possibilities and were able to realize their ultimate goal. I feel as though they have gone beyond logic and learned to create miracles in their everyday lives.
The theme song for the Olympics was “I Believe”. Because the athletes were able to see it, they could believe it. I now know that if we truly believe it, we will see it. This knowledge has helped me to open my own mind to infinite possibilities. Remember that people used to think the earth was flat. They believed it because that is what they were told. Until one day one person didn’t believe it. He believed the earth was round. He truly believed it and therefore was the first one to see it. Walking on the moon was something people had at one time thought was impossible until one day someone believed different. We see these miracles manifest into reality all the time.
There are so many examples of miracles in our lives. Somebody allowed their mind to open to a possibility and was able to make “a miracle” happen in their life. They attracted the people and experiences necessary to help bring the dream into a reality.
I believe. Do you?
Until next time, take care. MD

On Tuesday I got a call from my specialist’s nurse telling me that the tests of the other day were wrong. She said that things got mixed up at the lab and that wasn’t even my blood they were testing!!! Imagine!!! I could hardly believe it. Have you ever let the air out of a balloon and watched it sputter around the room until it comes to rest on the floor totally deflated. That was me the day she called to tell me of the mistake. I was totally deflated. I had been so excited on the weekend and spent quite a bit of time thinking about the best way to go off dialysis. I was remembering what it was like to live without this tube in my gut and having to do treatments four times a day. My mind raced with anticipation. I would be able to wear normal clothes again. I could bend again. I could do yard work and not worry about the weight of the stones for my flower bed wall. Larry wouldn’t have to give me this dreaded needle every two weeks. Maybe I could get a decent job again. So many things for me to consider. It was such a let down to get that last call. I felt as though the wind had been let out of me. I sat down; totally speechless for a second.
In the old days I would have said something like, “Oh that’s too bad. See you next month.” I would then have spent a lot of time fretting about it and being mad but not letting on that I was mad, holding it in, letting the dis-ease build. In my healing frame of mind I now deal with things as they come up. As I’m learning from my study of nature - ruffle the feathers and swim away!
I made sure the nurse knew I was not happy about this. Keeping in mind that it wasn’t her mistake and I didn’t want to kill the messenger, I made sure to stick to the point but let my dissatisfaction show. Firm but not mean. It felt good to stand up for myself. I then sat down and had a good cry. It wasn’t time for me to heal. I still had more work to do to restore the balance in my life.
After a few hours of feeling sorry for myself I was able to see the positives in the situation and move on from the negative. Their mistake has nothing to do with me. I will continue to move foreword in the direction of healing, learning how to live my life with ease. I enjoyed the weekend preparing for kidney restoration. I think I’ll stay in that mind set knowing the day will come for my vision to become a reality.
Until next time, take care. MD