Sorry it's been so long!

Happy Canada Day everyone!

I haven’t written in awhile because I thought I had nothing to write about. Is that what they call, “writer’s block”? I think it is more a case of fear. I have a very hard time sharing my feelings and thoughts. If I can’t find something else to talk about then I would rather just listen. There is always somebody who is more than happy to talk about themselves! Anyway, recently something happened and I have decided to share the experience with you. As uncomfortable as I am, I’m thinking it will be good for my health to learn how to do this. It will be like exorcizing the negativity in my life.

I have a vision board on the wall in my bedroom and as writing a book is part of my vision, I have a copy of my book sitting right by my computer. I have put a mockup of a book jacket on a book so that it looks like I wrote the book. This cover has my picture on it, a title and it says by “Best Selling Author” Mary Dancey.

One of my friends stopped by and when she saw that book she picked it up and burst out laughing. She laughed very hard and loud and said, “Yaw, right Mare!” She was ridiculing my vision! My response was to tell her she will be laughing out of the other side of her face when I’m living high from the money I make from my best seller!

I was very disappointed in her reaction. Since I’ve been sick, I have found that some of the people I was calling a friend don’t have my best interest in mind. It seems they want to be my friend as long as I don’t grow past them. They try to pull me back down when they can. I see that some of my people want to learn and grow with me but I have also learned that I won’t be able to take all my old people with me on my journey of healing.

That makes me sad at times but I now can look at it in a different way. Their reaction to me isn’t personal, it isn’t even about me. It is about them and their own fears to deal with or to live with. I see that I’m attracting new people to me, people who are very positive and far more supportive than a lot of people who I’ve known a long time. I have decided that my experience as Mary, will be exciting and prosperous from now on. I’m anxious to meet the new positive people that I’ll attract along the way. I am ready to let go of the others with the hopes that they some day realize that our experience on this earth is a choice we make. I will stop resisting this shift and embrace the changes I’m about to make.

Until next time, take care.