I’ve learned that we have more control over disease than I thought. I started thinking of it as dis-ease as suggested in some of the books I’m reading, and I realize that to earn my way out of kidney failure, I need to learn how to get from dis-ease to ease. This is no small task!
My homeopathic doctor, Dr. David, tells me not to let others decide my destiny. I need to take control of my own destiny. With that in mind, I’m using my gut as my guide. If a situation makes my stomach tighten and I feel a bit nauseous I know it is wrong for me. I then need to handle it in a way that eases the knot in my stomach.
I am finally at the stage of my healing where I can usually deal with it on the spot. I still have my setbacks although they are getting fewer and farther between. I believe that is because I have removed myself or distanced myself from most of the people who don’t fill me up. You know the ones who do their best to suck the life out of you when they get a chance. The ones who know your weak spots and aren’t afraid to use them to push your buttons. The ones who want to drag you down with negativity. This can be friends, family or co-workers. Some times you can even feel the negativity oozing from a total stranger! I for sure stay clear of those.
Becoming aware of these people can be a hard reality. It sometimes means walking away from those you care about. I’ve learned that even people you care for are not always good for your health. Be aware of the ones who can’t look at their own short comings and continue to look outward. Be prepared for your name to be drug through the mud when you attempt to break the pattern. It takes a great amount of will power to stick to your resolve. Imagine how powerful the human race would if each of us took total responsibility for our own happiness!
I’ve also noticed that some recognize the difference in me and are trying to meet me half way, both of us looking for a balance instead of forcing our wills on each other. I love that about them and will do my best to meet them half way.
The only thing I know for sure is that to live with ease I must follow my gut and not let the opinion of others define me. Whether or not someone disagrees or agrees with me has nothing to do with me. What they say about me, good or bad, has nothing to do with me. The barbs and put downs are not my concern. I need to learn how to believe that. I must get to the point of never having the sick feeling in my gut. Live without dis-ease and live with ease!
Until next time, take care. MD